The Glue Factory
What is the point of going online everyday trying to organize? What is the point of trying to help community members offline who wish to harm you, either for their survival or because they think they're superior or entitled to? What is the point of trying to join with people who keep you at bay, can't give you tasks, and seem only to be a book club who protests or a gun club whose only plan is to eliminate all authority and create a free-for-all that they are hoping people will be selfless enough to navigate afterwards?
Society has basically divided itself into moral enemies, irresponsible frenemies, and disorganized allies that keep people at bay. I'm having a disillusioned, quietist moment of what the fuck's the point. Nobody can tell me the material conditions and people I'm seeing are wrong. But maybe my fellow anti-capitalists and anti-imperialists can restore some faith or hope in humanity and give me a purpose, because at the moment it's the same thing over and over again from us, expecting a different result. I don't care who originally called it insanity, that's what our actions have become. We can't lead a horse to water if they won't move, and we can't make a horse drink if we can get them to water. The number of horses willing to drink is few, while the rest seem to be heading back to the glue factory.
Maybe the problem is that as a neurodivergent, my philosophical-ideological views have become, or are near, a secular-political religion, like other atheist philosophical traditions such as Atheopaganism, Jainism, Confucianism, Taoism, Buddhism, LaVeyanism, Unitarian Universalism, and Feng Shui, giving me cosmological philosophy, real-time analysis from dialectical materialism, ethics, community, and meaning all at once. A framework that explains everything. It's not that I want to stop helping people, and I cannot stop blaming people when they wilfully choose to sustain or create the problems we're going through. I want the best for others but their actions, inaction, and rhetoric make me dislike people and the character of humanity.
People are a product of their environment, and while the system has created the main environment, people are altering that environment to create new and worse pockets that the system is no longer completely responsible for. I'm at the point where when I'm not feeling burnout, I'm feeling like people are a waste of time because they're never going to do what needs to be done. They've become the systematic problems we're trying to abolish.
I have said that Great Replacement Theory wasn't just about Caucasians but about all of humanity, because I have heard other ethnic groups talk about getting replaced, and it wasn't just ethnicity but every sectarian division society has been carved into. We've handed control of our meaning over to the least reliable variable in the system: the people. And the people have been conditioned to accept and become the sins, the vices, the arishadvarga, and the dark triad. They have become the ideological and systematic issues we oppose. We seek to repeal and replace the systematic problems, which is why we're met with such resistance, because either they're comfortable and resist us, or they are the system and oppose us, because either way we seek to repeal who they are and replace them with a better and more evolved reflection of humanity.
Don't tell me I've trapped myself in a cage. We are what we tolerate. We are guilty by association. And once around that type of person long enough, we become infected by them if we don't choose to exile ourselves. So my core principles and values may have led me here, but it's the people who keep me here. They are the system. I analyze, I compare, I research, and I conclude: people aren't changing their actions without changing their mentality first. I see the world, where's the entry point for positive action and progress when the Overton window keeps shifting right?
Partial, compromised, reversible progress is not worth pursuing, not because it fails on principle alone, but because as modern history shows, it reduces immediate suffering for real people in the present, they let their guard down, and then the powers that be hit the UNO reverse and send everything back to start. The only change worth pursuing is total systemic replacement. Not reform, not concessions, not partial progress. That position is correct in its analysis, but it faces material reality head-on.
The difference between that position and what we're currently experiencing may not be philosophical at all. It may simply be isolation and resource depletion, material conditions, not ideological conclusions, but conditions that allow analysis to reveal the philosophical-ideological conclusions. My head is spinning from stagnation by, hope in, and disillusionment with humanity all at once.
In America alone, 152 million Americans voted for genocide, even those who voted lesser evil. Eric Beerbohm's theory holds that we have a duty not to vote when doing so makes us complicit in injustice, and 152 million did exactly that, they voted with the genocidal, and continue to be complicit with their support of the two parties. Even more do so by supporting the Axis of Evil and the modern Allied powers comprised of the US, Japan, NATO, and their allies. Our duty was to vote independent or third party, and if that failed, to revolt, not to double down on loyalty to oppressive parties and governing systems. My fellow citizens chose to side with injustice. And looking around the world, while some protest the treatment of Palestine, Congo, Sudan, Haiti, Cuba, and Venezuela, the majority are in arms against the protests because either we inconvenience them or call out whom they are.
That is the reality of the material conditions. Maybe my problem is that I don't have access to, or don't yet know, the actions required for what my analysis is already showing me. Our framework didn't produce the paralysis, the material conditions produced the paralysis, and the framework is accurately identifying it as such. It's the record that makes the next door possible when conditions shift enough to build one. Being right doesn't automatically come with a way out. That's a material problem, not a philosophical one.
The frustration isn't that our analysis is wrong and the question of what we do with correct analysis during a period of no available action is the proper one. Because historically that period, the dead end before the door exists, is where the theoretical groundwork gets laid that eventually becomes the door.
Remember, we are one people, in one communal, on one planet, with one voice. Like it or not we have a collective oneness and shared an obligatory stewardship responsibility to the planet and each other. Your life, your existence affects everyone else, so just living your life and doing you, does not let you off the hook. Your inaction still makes you complicit in the actions that harm us because your focus on yourself and your bubble is selfish and unbecoming of humanity. This is not purity politics, it's integrity of principle; learn and accept the difference. We are the vanguard, we are the workers, we are the peasants, we are the people, we are earthlings, we are one and one are we, always.
Per sanguinem et iurgia, gladium et catenas aufer, percute deos ac dominos. Tutus in undis inter chaos, ultra quod est trudas oportet ad quod debet esse. Unus populus unitus, cum obligatorie villicationis erga homines et planetas, per nos, alveare mentis.
- Yaunti, The Hive-mind Collectivist.
P.S. I'm not politically frustrated, I'm morally wounded at the hands of this rendition of humanity. They have betrayed us and chosen to directly or indirectly be complicit with injustice. Leaving the non complicit insanity through repeated action or an existence of an endless trudge. Am I misanthropic, suffering from revolutionary burnout, dealing with neurodivergencies, or a combination, Idk anymore but I have no direction, and no ideas of solution because back-up plans have never been a strong suit of mine. Be safe and remember to breathe.
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